July 16, 2006
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FRUST UP...!!!
URGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CAN ANYONE JUZ TELL ME WHY AM I BORN HERE?!?!?!.......WHY IS MY LIFE LIKE DAT?!?!?!?.....WHY DO I NEED A LIFE?!?!??!??!......
I JUZ WISH THE TIME WOULD JUZ STOP LAST NITE!!!!.....OR AT LEAST MY LIFE END LAST NITE!!!.....DEN I CAN DIE WIF SUCH A GOOD MEMORIES AND TIME..........ARGHHHH!!!!....
bon odori was great....too bad no mood to blog about it....i'm practically dying rite now....if i'm daring enough i could juz commit suicide....parents....ops my mistake....fun sucker din scold me for being late last nite...which is a extremely surprising thing.....ppl...my advice....buy lottery!!!!....
tonite was going tambun to celebrate ah bok's burfday....and farewell party for chihou and wanchin....but NOOOO!!!!.....fun sucker juz use d word EVERYDAY GO OUT & SPEND MONEY.....no need for me to emphasis more on it....it's understood how would i react...can't believe i could actually weep rite now....for this stupiak things....when my results failed i din even cry....this is so shitty!!!!.....FARKTARD!!!...while blasting d clubbing songs out loud on d headphone....think i'm turning deaf....he's juz a fun sucker!!!!....I HATE HIM!!!....THEY DOESN'T HAF FRENS DOESN'T MEAN I CAN'T HAF,OK?!?!?!......THEY DUN HAF A LIFE DOESN'T MEAN I CAN'T HAF MINE!!!!!.....ARGHHHHH!!!!.....THEY SERIOUSLY....URGGHHHH!!!.....I DUNNO.....NOW I UNDERSTAND HOW SOME PPL CAN RUN AWAY FROM HOME....OR JUZ MOVE OUT....OR EVEN SOME TEENAGERS COMMIT SUICIDE.....opsss....my mistake again....am i still a teenager?!?!?.....i'm juz a baby....2 years of age....
i wanna juz move all my things n stay over in penang!!!....all my stuff!!!....even i only got 3 days of class....i dun mind even staying there do practically nothing....URGHHH!!!!.....
some parents will juz ask....y we can tok nicely to frens n treat them so nicely but to them....OOOOHHHHH!!!!......wat a nice question?!?!?....y dun u ask how u treat us first b4 u ask us dat question?!?!?!.....i noe some ppl say hit is love....but i din noe dat destroying soemone life is also known as love....love my arse!!!!...if d harder u push someone n destroying their life is love....might as well juz kill me....then tell the world dat's d way u show ppl how u love them....but den i'll juz kill all my frens n myself....
*pathetic*....why am i still crying rite now?!?!?!?.....is this really wat i wan?!?!?!?....wat i really wan?!?!?!.....i dun haf a choice do i????....god let me to b in this family....they r my parents....they r here to destroy my life....i dun even haf a choice to do anything i wanna do....wat they choose is always the "BEST" for me....even wat am i studying now is not my own choice....
well...i guess other ppl do af d same problem as me....but they got it earlier....not at my age....n i showed them d 'I'm Not Stupid Too' movie b4....i told them if 1 day i actually not toking...not replying....not doing wat i should do...probably they should think how compromising they r b4 they start scolding me...b4 they even judge me!!!....
my life endz here.............................................................................................................................................
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seems like u always " kau pek kau bo " in ur blog ...
seems like u always " kau pek kau bo " in ur blog ...
yaaaa....dat's wat i noe when i dun haf a life....btw...who r u???..mind intro first???
Hey, calm down. It's a phase that ALMOST everyone goes through. Even I went through that. It's not easy being the youngest, right? Coz if the elder siblings screw up then we're the last hope. It's always been and always will be like that. Plus, we're girls. So parents will be extra careful. They care about us but I admit at times they can go overboard. They too need to understand our needs. But the time when they were teenagers and now is totally different so it's kinda hard for them to understand. I bet if they were in our shoes, they too will want the same freedom as us.
And as for study wise, I too can understand that. I was forced into taking this course. Only my brother had my back for what I wanted to study but no one listened to us. They only listened to other people's opinion and not mine. It's unfair to us but we also have to think on their behalf. They already had a tough time bringing us up as a child and had to go through our "teenage problems" and now at the age of 20+, unexpected things might happened.
Like my dad told his friend in front of me. "She's growing up too fast." I actually wanted to break down and cry after what he said. It's true that we're growing up fast and maybe our parents want to keep us longer. Coz you're the youngest and they still want to keep you and not let you go away from that. For them, time's passing by too fast.
For me, at least, try not to act like this. They will take you as a child and not a matured person. I too acted like that and the response I got was not good. So try to talk to talk some sense into them. That's what I told my mom. I told her how I felt about everything and even talked back when she said some things just to make her see from my point of view.
Parents can be as stubborn as we are. But we too have our rights. Make them understand and who knows, things might change for the better. They will soon realize that they have to let you go sooner or later. That's what's happening to me now. They're slowly realizing things now although it's hard for them.
Anyways, take care k. Don't worry. Friends will always be around if you just ask them for help.
haihzz...thx gurl....but guess u're over wif that situation ade ler....enjoy ur time in penang....juz enjoy every minutes n seconds u're wif ur frenss....coz once u go sem break n back to ur family...everything changes ade....juz like me....now u only c them twice a week so everything is fine....but once u c them everyday....GONE...!!!!
wa,so stim ka?...so long no read ur blog,suddenly so angry.. -.-"
aiya,ur frens are always there for u ma,be cool girl..chill..
i learnt my lesson ... dont ask them to go out ... tell them you're goin out .. last time i alwiz ask them sure kena then answer no ... now i tell and terus go out ade ... haha
hhahahaha...but come out sure kena wan.....predictable....
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